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As a result of my life of humiliation I have become at the very least rather quirky about sex. Rather than becoming resentful of men who are better able please my lover, I have grown to be fascinated by the idea of someone I love being pleased in a way that I cannot provide.
I have found that my penis is not tiny, just a little smaller than average. I am 5&1/2" long and 4&1/2" around. Both measurements are only slightly below average for white men. Ive just been unlucky as to how big the guys around me are. My childhood best friend was over 8", I know this because he used to use his moms measuring tape and try to measure it in front of every one. He is also the one who nailed my first girlfriend.
My next girlfriend also left me for a guy who had reputation at school for being hung.
Jenny only had 3 boyfriends before me, and they were all between6'1" and 6'4". I guess taller guys have taller dick because she claims the guy who was smallest among these had a 9" dick.
Are guys in general more hung than it is widely though, or am I just unlucky? I am pretty sure I am just unlucky. I suppose luck doesn't have much to do with my premature ejaculation.
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Before Jenny, many factors help to encourage my budding inadequacy. On one occasion I can remember being part of a group of young men who had taken a brake from football to pee behind a garage. As we were in the act urinating, one boy looked over at me and proclaimed "look his dick is the smallest". From that point on it became common knowledge to my entire circle of friends,male and female, that I had a small dick. Of course, from then on I avoided any situation were I might be exposed.
Later at about 13 I got my first real girlfriend. We pretty much only saw each other at school, but did get together away from school a few times,and did ever have sex twice. The summer after that school year I was surprised to find that my neighbour and best friends mom was good friends with my girl Friends mother. This was good for me because my girl friends parents were going to leave her at my friends house for a week and a half while on vacation. The first day she was there she and I had sex in a local park. Of course i only lasted seconds and had no idea otherwise how to please her. As it turns out, her and my best friend had sex over and over all night that night. I had no idea about this until after she left, but for the rest of the week she pretty much ignored me. Later that summer we talked on the phone and she told me the whole story in graphic detail, however, Between what she told me and what he later told me I have just kind of put both of there stories together.Long story short, she opened her eyes to see my friend standing at her bed with his pants open and his sizable erection right at eye level. He asked her if she had ever seen one that big and then pushed it close to her mouth. According to her she never said a word, she just took it in her mouth, then after only a few seconds he pulled up her night shit and removed her panties. Both of them agreed that it took a few minutes to get him into her because she was tight and well he has a big dick. She said he lasted longer than me but only a couple of min, but after he was done she went to the bath room and when she came back he was still on her bed and he was hard again already. She told me they did it 4 times and he came inside her all four times. He told me that they had sex more than 4 times and he never came in her. He also said that the sun was coming up when he went back to his room.
In any event, She and I didn't date again until the eighth grade and that only lasted a month or so.
My next girlfriend of note was in the 10th grade. We dated for a few months. Finally one night she let me in her pants. She was a virgin and even for me she was soooo tight. I'm sure she was pretty nervous and she was dry as a bone. It didn't help I had no idea about how to get her wet or never thought to lube her up. I was finally able to get into her, and after about 3 pumps she started to get a little wet. As I felt the first drops of wetness I pulled out and came all over her stomach. We only dated about another week. Her very next boyfriend had sex with her a couple of weeks later and she ended up at the emergency room, because of the bleeding. It seems when I penetrated her I didn't even break her hymen. When her new boyfriend fucked her he broke it immediately and she bled for some time before going to the hospital. Going to the hospital because someone popped your cherry is pretty embarrassing but not as much as your friends finding out you fucked her first and didn't.
I had only 1 steady girlfriend after that and I never fucked her for more that 5min. After 6mo she left me for an older guy. She never commented on the size of his dick, but she did tell a mutual friend the sex was a lot better with him.
After her my sex life was just a long series of embarrassing 1 night stands, until I met jenny.
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